
| Location | Croydon |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 7/2005 |
| Date of Death | 7/2005 |
| Visitors | 2,229 since 13/03/2007 |
| Creator |
Cody-Ann Tucker
Born asleep on 03/07/2005
19 weeks gestation
Due on 8/11/2005
My Baby Girl (daughter)
Mummy & Daddy
Stillborn
Baby Peanut Tucker
Miscarried on 09/08/2007
8 weeks gestation
Due on 21/03/2008
I never thought i would ever get pregnant as it never seemed to happen then one day i started to
feel sick so my sis inlaw suggested taking a test and so i did, i never imagined it would be
possitive but it was so i took 2 more tests all with the same result POSITIVE.
We were so happy and excited, we couldnt wait to meet you u were so longed for and very very loved,
we saw you on our first scan and u were jumping all around like a little fish we were so happy we
bought scan pics for all the family, everyone was so happy for us they all said i would be a
brilliant mum and Andrew an excellent Dad.
I had no morning sickness or cravings just felt nauseous then we had our second scan we couldnt wait
to find out if you were a boy or girl so we could finally choose a name for my little bump, so
mummy, Daddy, aunty sarah & aunty sharon all bundled into the room waiting to see what sex u
were and that was when the nurse looked at me and said those dreaded words, "i'm sorry to
tell you your babys dead" i couldnt believe it we all started crying, your aunties ran out of
the room crying, mummy & daddy were then shown into another room and told that we would be taken
to the labour ward to take a tablet to induce labour, i didnt understand how this could happen and
now they wanted me to take a tablet which to me felt like they were taking my baby away, if you were
inside me you were still mine to keep but i had to take the tablet and come back in 3 days, that was
awful, i had to go home knowing my baby was dead inside me and that in a few days i had to give
birth. I cried so much, your poor daddy was heartbroken, we all were. So the time came to go into
hospital i was there for 13 half hours in labour and then you were born but i closed my eyes, i
wanted your daddy to see you first and he did we named you cody-ann as cody was the only name we
liked for a boy or girl then the chaplain of the hospital hilary fife came and blessed you we all
cried and we filmed it so we could watch it back someday then it was time to say goodbye and arrange
your funeral.
On 11th July 2005 we held your funeral at streatham crematorium, you had a lovely white coffin which
was pink on the inside, we put photos and teddys and a st christopher in your coffin with you, your
daddy & uncle lee carried your tiny little coffin into the church, we asked your cousin little
danny to right a poem which he read out and we asked aunty sarah to sing spice girls goodbye and
mummy & daddy placed a rose each on your coffin then the curtains were closed while eric
claptons tears in heaven played i sobbed my heart out.
We then went outside to the garden where daddy releassed a dove and i releassed a balloon and it was
there we said so long never goodbye.
You are our little butterfly angel who is now safe in heaven watching over us till we meet again,
you are loved so so so very very much and we miss you everyday and say goodnight to you every night.
sweet dreams our perfect little angel rest in peace love mummy & daddy xxxxx
To our 2nd angel Baby peanut we miss you so much, we thought this time would be different but sadly
it was not meant to be, play happily with ur sister and all the other angels, sweetdreams Peanut
love mummy & daddy xxxxxxx
TINY HANDS
Although we didn't get
the chance,
to take your tiny hand
And lead you through the
Childhood which together
we had planned
And though there really wasn't
chance to show you all the love
Now sent to you abundently
borne upwards by the dove
Rember, darling that
your tiny heart must know
The we will always
treasure you
and your memory
will grow.
hope you are having lots of fun today, thankyou for the lovely sunshine.. my love to you and your family always xxx
A friend is one
To whom one may pour
Out all the contents
Of ones heart
Chaff and Grain together
Knowing that the
Gentlest of hands
Will take and sift it
Keep what is worth keeping
And with a breath of kindness
Blow the rest away.
Please don't be so sad,
I miss you so much, too.
It's beautiful here where I am,
but I worry a lot about you.
I sleep with angels watching me,
there's only love up here.
I'm never lonely of afraid
'cause God's so very near.
I walk with angels every day,
they're very kind and sweet.
Don't worry, Mom and Dad,
they hold my hand when
we cross a golden street.
I never cry or hurt myself,
I see rainbows every day.
I play and laugh and sing a lot,
and I hear you both when you pray.
Please Mommy and Daddy,
don't be mad at God,
you see, he loves me, too.
And even though you're not with me,
I'm really still with you.
i miss you so very much xxx
Can You Be A Mother When Your Baby Is Not With You?
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked 'What makes a Mother?'
And I know I heard Him say.
'A Mother has a baby'
This we know is true
'But God can you be a Mother,
when your baby's not with you?'
'Yes, you can,' He replied
With confidence in His voice
'I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay.'
'I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here.'
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.
'I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...'
We go to earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear,
My mummy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mummy,
Who had so much love for me
I learned my lessons very quickly
My mummy set me free.
I miss my mummy oh so much
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillows where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear
Mummy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'
'So you see my dear sweet ones,
Your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home
And this is where they'll stay.'
'They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lessons through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize
You are a mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one.'
Thinking of you
When you've suffered the loss of a child,
It may be comforting to know,
There's a special place in Heaven,
Where all Gods Children go.
It is a happy, peaceful place,
Where no child ever cries,
They are innocently content to be,
A blessed Angel in your eyes.
The one and only need they have,
Is for you to understand,
That only very special Children,
Are place in Gods loving hand.
The Lord smiles down upon them,
While in his tender care,
As they patiently await the time,
That you will meet them there.
And though the time on Earth short lived,
Please set your sorrow free,
For one day in Gods Holy Land,
Together you will share Eternity.
For you xxxxxxxx
I thought of you with love today but that is nothing new,
I thought about you yesterday and day's before that too,
I think of you in silence, I often speak your name,
All I have are memories and your picture in a frame,
Your memory is my keepsake with which I will never part,
God has you in his keeping,
I have you in my heart.
Mummy from the start
I am still a Mummy; I was a Mummy from the start.
What makes me a Mummy is that feeling in my heart.
Pregnant I was, there was a baby inside me.
For some Mummy's all it takes is to know, they have planted that seed.
There is a bond that takes place from the moment that you know.
Inside of your body someone special has started to grow.
My baby didn't make it; she is in Heaven up above.
In my heart I'm still her Mummy, I am filled with endless love.
Something happens to a woman when her seedling starts to grow.
Unless you have felt these feelings it is impossible to know.
She meant the world to me and I will never be the same.
All I need is for you to listen when I wish to say her name.
She may be gone but she's not forgotten I miss her each and every day.
Could you imagine that it would be any other way?
What kind of Mummy would I be if I forgot my daughter?
I had planned my whole life around her, all the great things we would have done.
I may have another child, possibly another two.
There is something I know for certain, she will always be my first child, my daughter, and I her Mummy too.
With love xxxxxxxxx
You never said you were leaving,
You never said goodbye,
You were gone before I knew it,
And only god know's why.
A million times I needed you,
A million times i've cried,
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still,
In my heart, you hold a place,
No one could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you did not go alone,
For part of me went with you,
The day god took you home.
Hello lisa
Thanks so much for what you did at the sevice for me geting my babys name read out means so much to me.
I couldnt face going plus i been in to much pain ive had to stay in bed it's been really bad.
Sorry i didnt text you back but have no cred at the mo hun.
I hope you are copeing ok hun stay strong!!
Loads of love to you x x x
A man in grief
It must be very difficult
To be a man in grief,
Since 'men don't cry' and 'men are strong'
No tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test
And field the calls and visitors
So she can get some rest.
They always ask if she's all right
And what she's going through.
But seldom take his hand and ask,
'My friend, but how are you?'
He hears her crying in the night
And thinks his heart will break.
He dries her tears and comforts her,
but 'stays strong' for her sake.
It must be very difficult
To start each day anew
And try to be so very brave --
He lost his baby too.
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