| Location | Croydon |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 7/2005 |
| Date of Death | 7/2005 |
| Visitors | 2,226 since 13/03/2007 |
| Creator |
Cody-Ann Tucker
Born asleep on 03/07/2005
19 weeks gestation
Due on 8/11/2005
My Baby Girl (daughter)
Mummy & Daddy
Stillborn
Baby Peanut Tucker
Miscarried on 09/08/2007
8 weeks gestation
Due on 21/03/2008
I never thought i would ever get pregnant as it never seemed to happen then one day i started to
feel sick so my sis inlaw suggested taking a test and so i did, i never imagined it would be
possitive but it was so i took 2 more tests all with the same result POSITIVE.
We were so happy and excited, we couldnt wait to meet you u were so longed for and very very loved,
we saw you on our first scan and u were jumping all around like a little fish we were so happy we
bought scan pics for all the family, everyone was so happy for us they all said i would be a
brilliant mum and Andrew an excellent Dad.
I had no morning sickness or cravings just felt nauseous then we had our second scan we couldnt wait
to find out if you were a boy or girl so we could finally choose a name for my little bump, so
mummy, Daddy, aunty sarah & aunty sharon all bundled into the room waiting to see what sex u
were and that was when the nurse looked at me and said those dreaded words, "i'm sorry to
tell you your babys dead" i couldnt believe it we all started crying, your aunties ran out of
the room crying, mummy & daddy were then shown into another room and told that we would be taken
to the labour ward to take a tablet to induce labour, i didnt understand how this could happen and
now they wanted me to take a tablet which to me felt like they were taking my baby away, if you were
inside me you were still mine to keep but i had to take the tablet and come back in 3 days, that was
awful, i had to go home knowing my baby was dead inside me and that in a few days i had to give
birth. I cried so much, your poor daddy was heartbroken, we all were. So the time came to go into
hospital i was there for 13 half hours in labour and then you were born but i closed my eyes, i
wanted your daddy to see you first and he did we named you cody-ann as cody was the only name we
liked for a boy or girl then the chaplain of the hospital hilary fife came and blessed you we all
cried and we filmed it so we could watch it back someday then it was time to say goodbye and arrange
your funeral.
On 11th July 2005 we held your funeral at streatham crematorium, you had a lovely white coffin which
was pink on the inside, we put photos and teddys and a st christopher in your coffin with you, your
daddy & uncle lee carried your tiny little coffin into the church, we asked your cousin little
danny to right a poem which he read out and we asked aunty sarah to sing spice girls goodbye and
mummy & daddy placed a rose each on your coffin then the curtains were closed while eric
claptons tears in heaven played i sobbed my heart out.
We then went outside to the garden where daddy releassed a dove and i releassed a balloon and it was
there we said so long never goodbye.
You are our little butterfly angel who is now safe in heaven watching over us till we meet again,
you are loved so so so very very much and we miss you everyday and say goodnight to you every night.
sweet dreams our perfect little angel rest in peace love mummy & daddy xxxxx
To our 2nd angel Baby peanut we miss you so much, we thought this time would be different but sadly
it was not meant to be, play happily with ur sister and all the other angels, sweetdreams Peanut
love mummy & daddy xxxxxxx
Andys cherub Anthem
I've been on this site a while now
and there's some angels dear to me
there's Imogen Grace so beautiful
like Cody-Ann and Lee
There's Paulines lovely son Jason
Billy Handley he's the cool dude
And the lovely smile of Alex Cole
That always puts me in a good mood
We have the lovely little Chloes
Ones Angel and the others Jarman
And Amy Le Sage what a lovely name
Whos Mother will do all she can
There's also little Chyna ann
And Lydia with all her flare
And lovely little Demi-Leigh
Her Mum & Aunt show so much care
We finish with Jamie and Lee Woods
and not forgetting Casey-Leigh
You all have a special place in my heart
You mean all the world to me.
this poem is written by stephen Jordans wonderful brother Andy.
I will be there
Daddy please don't look so sad, Mummy please don't cry.
Cause I'm in the arms of Jesus and he sings me lullabies.
Please, try not to question god, don't think he is unkind.
Don't think he sent me to you, and then he changed his mind.
You see I am a special child, and I'm needed up above.
I'm the special gift you gave him, I'm a product of your love.
I'll always be there with you, and watch the sky at night.
Just find the brightest gleaming star, thats my halo shining light.
You'll see me in the morning frost, that mists your window pane.
That's me in all the summer showers, dancing in the rain.
When you feel a little breeze, from a gentle wind that blows.
That's me, I'll be there, planting kisses on your nose.
When you see a child thats playing and your heart feels a tug.
That's me, I'll be there giving your heart a hug.
So Daddy please don't look so sad, and Mummy please don't cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus, and he sings me lullabies.
You were sitting on the prairie
Overlooking the skies of blue
Nothing there but silence
A few butterflys and you
A butterfly rested on you
And tickled your face of pink
The butterfly then asked you
What is it Cody-Ann that you think
Is it all the days that have passed now
without mummy by your side
Or are you upset about all the time
with your mummy you were denied
Just jump on my wings and i'll take you
to a place called mummy land
It's where you lay and fall asleep
and mummy lays there holding your hand..
Your Angel
It's me, your little Angel
Just checking in with you.
I know you're sad
because I'm gone,
and Mummy I'm sad too.
It's beautiful here,
wherever I am,
there's such a lovely view.
But mostly when I'm sitting here
I'm looking down at you
I see all your feelings,
everyday when I look down,
I love to see you smile
and I know sometimes you frown
But guess what?
I have a job to do.
God saved it for your little boy.
I get to watch over you
and protect you from the world.
So though you cannot see me
and I know it's hard on you,
You'll surely see the benefits
of the job God has me do
How do you love a person
Who never got to be,
Or try again to see a face
You never got to see?
How do you mourn the death of one
Who never got to live,
When there's nothing to feel good about
And nothing to forgive?
I love you, darling baby.
You're a person of the wind,
Free to be the memory
Of all that might have been.
I love you, darling baby,
My companion of the night,
Wandering through my lonely hours,
Beautiful and bright.
What does it mean to die before
You ever can be born,
To live the lovely night of life
And never see the dawn?
Ah! My darling baby,
You lived like anyone!
Life's a burst of joy and pain,
And then, like yours, it's done.
I love you, darling baby,
Just as if you'd lived for years.
No more, no less, I think of you,
The angel of my tears.
Our Beautiful Daughter
I've lost my baby daughter,
Though not misplaced.
I feel she's somewhere
Bound by neither time nor space.
Perhaps she sits before the Throne
With radiant face.
She could be dancing happily
Like little girls do
With golden taps beneath
Each precious little shoe.
I know she must love music,
So I'm sure it's true.
I'm grateful that in Heaven
She is healthy and strong
And that she's lulled to sleep each night
By Heaven's song,
But I wish I could hold her;
Is that terribly wrong?
I sang so often to her
While she was with me
And I will go on listening
For her harmony.
How sweet to know
I'll hear it In eternity.
xxxxx
When Angels sense you need them, and they always do
They come unseen, from everywhere
To help and comfortyou
They hover close beside you
Til all your cares are gone
Til they can see youre ready
Once again to carry on
Then some of them may fly away
And take their gentle touch
To other hearts that need the love
Of Angels very much
But one , at least stays with you
As your constant friend and guide
For Guardian Angels never leave
They are always by your side
Hello princess, i hope you are playing happily in gods garden with my angel baby. May you play and be happy forever dancing through the clouds, give my baby a big hug from me. Sending you lots of hugs rest in peace x x x x
to codys mum: I know just how your feeling sending you love and strength x x
hello my little angel
your cousin here missing you lots and lots i wish you were here with me to enjoy the fun that i am having.
but you are always in my heart no matter what smtymes i wish i was with you because then i might have the chance to meet you i neva actually got to meet you in person but lets hope its not to long till i do.
im alawayz here for you whenever you may call for me sometimes i still cry myself to sleep but then i remember that you really aint too far away and that you are in a lot better place
i will be back soon my sweetheart love you alwayz and for ever love ur loving cousin sophie xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My Mum is a survivor
My Mum is a survivor,
Or so I've heard it said.
But I can hear her crying at night,
When all others are in bed.
I watch her lay awake at night,
And go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her,
To help her understand.
But like the sands on the beach,
That never wash away...
I watch over my surviving mum,
Who thinks of me each day.
She wears a smile for others...
A smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see,
Tears flowing from her eyes.
My mum tries to cope with death,
To keep my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows,
It is her way to survive.
As I watch over my surviving mum,
Through Heaven's open door...
I try to tell her that angels,
Protect me forevermore.
I know that doesn't help her...
Or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance, go visit her...
And show her that you care.
For no matter what she says...
No matter what she feels,
My surviving mum has a broken heart,
That time won't ever heal.
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